For 19 Years He Directed Spiritual
Formation
of Priests at a Major Seminary
What was wanted and unwanted
in a parish priest
Sins his church members confess
today and benefits thereof
By Robert R. Schwarz
In his
pastor's office at St. Gregory the Great church on Chicago's North Side we recently talked to Fr. Paul Wachdorf about his work from 1981 to 2007 as director
of prayer and spiritual formation of young men to be ordained as priests. Soon to be 70 years old and looking forward to retirement and a move
to his mobile home in Lake Zurich , Illinois , Fr. Paul is a thin man with white hair who expresses
this thoughts precisely without wasting time.
He spoke candidly about his role at
Mundelein Seminary , a major Catholic
learning institute with a large, scenic
campus in Libertyville , about an hour's drive from his church .
At a Cubs-White Sox game with his pastoral assistant (center ) and a parish member |
With his uncle about to take an aerial tour of Chicago |
With Mom and his sister |
Candidates Were Screened for
Problems
Asked if candidates for the priesthood at Mundelein were screened for homosexuality when he was there, Fr. Paul , "I was there before the crisis hit. We had a psychologist who screened all of our candidates to make sure a candidate had an unresolved problem that would impede him from moving forward [ to ordination ] . The seminary admissions board picked the candidates' brains to make sure the men were healthy [ in all respects ]. The board asked them about their sexual orientation . If they said they were a homosexual , the seminary would accept the candidate , providing he had been chaste for the last three years and that he would continue living a chaste and celibate life . This was also required for heterosexuality. " Asked if that policy at Mundelein is in force today, he said , "'I would hope so."
Soon to Retire But Not From Having Fun
Pastor Paul at Aspen on his way to a "top tier" medal in the National Standard ski race |
I asked why he was retiring next year? He laughed when saying " because I'll be
seventy and I'm tired , " and then added,
" The administrative task of being
a parish priest today is enormous. I'll be volunteering my time at a few
churches , anointing the sick, hearing confessions, and doing baptisms, weddings, and other church sacraments. Right
now, I want to continue doing spiritual direction. I have twelve people who see me in my office. I find that very
life-giving. "
Fr. Paul likely will continue to make
time for some fun and recreation. He plays
his ukulele while singing with
the children's choir and sometime
performs a juggling act while giving a homily
. He said he loves reading mystery novels (especially those
by James Patterson ) , eating anything
with chocolate, and riding a roller coaster rides—he rode 51 this year at
the Great America amusement park. Movies he's recently seen were "Angel
Has Fallen " and Hobbs and Shaw. "
His Thoughts
for Many about Spiritual Direction
In another interview, Fr. Paul fielded
the following questions many of might have about spiritual direction :
What are most people
looking for in spiritual direction?
Most
want a spiritual companion , like me, to accompany them on their
spiritual journey in life. They want to know what God is inviting them to do with
their life, their talents.
And also see the fruits of their efforts?
Well,
remember that the fabled Johnny Appleseed who sowed apple seeds all over the
countryside never got to see even one of
his apple trees .
Can
you be more specific ?
Spiritual
direction can be clear if people respond to what Saint Ignatius exhorted [the
16th Century priest and theologian who
founded the Jesuit religious order ] : " The hand of
God is found in everything ."
Even, for example,
in a mother's housework ?
Yes. Even in
secular things.
Can anyone benefit
from seeing a spiritual director?
I suspect that
everybody at some time could benefit from a spiritual director. Some see me
weekly or monthly , like some see their doctor for a periodic checkup. Others come when something comes up in their life they
want to process or talk about. But most who come to me are not dealing with
serious psychological problems. In that case, I might refer them to a
counselor.
I understand that
most Catholics don't see a spiritual director. Why ?
Most feel they
don't need one. Most Catholics don't go to confession, much less to a spiritual
director. Some fear a spiritual director will judge them, think less of them or
that he will try to control them in some
way. Or maybe they had parents who were too intimidating with authority. I'm
not aware, however, of any Protestant denomination that has spiritual
directors—it’s been a Catholic phenomena throughout history. Nevertheless, I
believe most people come to a point in their lives when they want to be helped
out by someone who's been on the journey.
What about evil,
that word which everybody seems to either shy away from or use rather
loosely ?
You can't do
Ignition spirituality work without belief in the evil spirit. There
definitely is a presence of evil that influences us because of our
flawed nature [ that which Adam and Eve incurred in the
Garden of Eden when they disobeyed God's command not to eat that apple ]
. You can spend too much time trying to discern whether
this influence is from the Devil or from our flawed
nature [ sometimes called our "Old Man" ]
. I'd rather deal with evil simply as a reality I can't
ignore. Everyone, regardless of church denomination, should be
aware of the ways in which we are tempted or seduced to act against our best
selves ,
such as tearing down others or not loving God
and neighbor as our selves.
Can you mention
some of the Devil's tactics ?
One is to hit us at
our Achilles' Heel, where we are the weakest, such as being impatience or
lustful. But when an individual matures in his or her spiritual life and
becomes aware of this tactic, then the Devil can appear as an "an
angel of light " , as something or someone good, and steers us down a bad
path.
Can you say
something about the evils of pride , like when we are unaware of
having too much ego attached to a respectable work project ,
even when it's for a good cause ?
I call that a kind
of pride , the "tail of the snake ", which, when you sense
its presence . run from it!
For
those not inclined to seek out a spiritual director yet want to learn more
about all of this, can you recommend, for example, a book ?
One of the best
book I ever read on evil and how the Devil attempts to seduce us, is " The Screw Tapes
Letters" by C.S. Lewis .
Care to say
anything about demonic possession ?
[ Smiling ] It's a topic that the public gets
interested in whenever Hollywood comes out with a movie like " The
Exorcist. " Actual incidents of demonic possession , I would say,
are extremely rare.
Do you have a
spiritual director?
Yes, I do.
And you go to confession?
I try to go two or
three times a year.
But
you do sin now and then ?
[ With a chuckle, but
still serious ] Of course.
I'm not going to
ask you what your sins are.
[ Enjoying the
humor ] Nor would I tell them to you.
Generally speaking,
what sins are people confessing nowadays?
A lot of
nitty-gritty things like impatience with one's spouse and children or impurity, such as
lustful thoughts, gossiping, being judgmental towards people or having been
dishonest during past confessions to a priest . No one has ever confessed a
murder to me, but shoplifting—yes. As for children, I hear things like,
" I fought with my brother and sister . "
Do you see ever the
faces of those making a confession ?
Not in the
confessional booth.
Your goals as a
spiritual director?
I want people to
grow in their relationship with God , to increase in the three
theological virtues of hope, faith and love and to be more discerning
about what their "God moments" are and what might
be " Devil moments." As a pastor, I want them to know what it
means to be a follower of Christ. For myself, I want to
practice every day what I believe God is inviting me to do to bring about His
kingdom.
And challenges !
My biggest
challenge is not to make people into my own image and likeness, not
to impose my agenda on others. Though I have certain ways I prefer to
pray, to live out my Catholicism, and though this or that has
value for me, it well may not have value for that person .. That's one of the
pitfalls of being a spiritual director . He needs to respect the diversity or
people and their life story.
Is this a
discipline you have learned ?
As a matter of fact
–yes. During my four summers studying spirituality at Creighton
University [ in Omaha, Nebraska ]
, I was taught, by role-playing , to be a good listener, to
focus on the other person's "story" and not on my personal
values.
Other skills or
talents you have ?
I juggle, sometimes
sing with the children's choir , and play the ukulele—have been for forty
years. My father had a three-piece band in the 50's and 60's called
the " Diplomats. " He himself played the sax and clarinet and
gave music lessons in our home. He did this to augment his
income as a display ad salesman for the South Town Economist newspapers.
Anything you had to
learn the hard way ?
I learned , when
instructing international students at Mundelein Seminary , that talking louder to a student for
whom English is a second language doesn't help them to better understand. That
was an awkward lesson. I also had to learn that my homilies or sermons had to
reflect the background of my audience .
What in your
life do you believe shaped you the most ?
My
parents and my mother's parents. They came from Ireland, from County Mayo
, near the national shrine of Knock . [ Where an
apparition of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Saint Joseph, John the
Evangelist, angels , and the Lamb of God ( Jesus ) appeared to
several observers of all ages in 1879.] My grandparents
lived across the street, and my grandmother and mother would walk
my sister and me to church every day. But the definitive moment in my
life was being ordained.
So,
what makes you happy ?
Being
with people. My encounters with them are just fascinating. And riding
roller coasters gives me great joy. Last summer I rode them fifty-one
times at Great America.
And sad?
Dealing
with people who are sick or suffering or dying.
What
about recreation or fun?
For
something completely different, I like to read murder mystery novels
by James Patterson and solve them like Sherlock
Holmes might. .
Anything
else ?
I love anything chocolate, and meatloaf,
the way my mother made it.
One last question: How
would you like people to remember you ?
As
a priest who loved and cared for his people.
THE END
Note: A list of online
websites on Fr.
Paul can be searched by typing
in " Fr.
Paul Wachdorf. "
Beginning Nov. 3:
A Marriage Nourished by 8
Children and a Steadfast
Life of Faith and Service
Beginning Nov. 3:
A Marriage Nourished by 8
Children and a Steadfast
Life of Faith and Service
All comments are welcome.
rrschwarz7@wowway.com
© 2019 by Robert R. Schwarz
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